I've got roots here, man - I just signed a phone contract!

this time in HK it's definitely different. i remember when i first came here on exchange and how I floated over this city in a constant euphoric haze - trumped upon by late nights and even later mornings. maybe it was the new setting and group that propelled that ecstasy, maybe it was the lady that encouraged me to be happy. the people that i've met on exchange in hk have all but mainly left. the ones who are still in the city are few, but they are the last remaining legitimizers of my past-student life here. this city is a new experience again. 

it's odd to think back on those days because the times now, even though i've returned to this city, stands in stark contrast to what was happening back in 2010. this time around i'm just like every other ordinary fuck that's looking for corporate acceptance and striving for that buck. I'm a worker here, I have a Mon-Fri schedule, I pay full price for the subway, I've got roots here now, man - I just signed a phone contract! What I'm experiencing now in actuality is not just the readapting to a new city, but the transition from student to worker - it is that transition that i'm grappling and trying my best to come to terms with. I know for certain that this inner struggle is one that was inevitable, but it still took me by surprise at how sharp the turn was. even though HK is different this time, what's truly different and changing is me.